Black Depression Anxiety February by Julian Randall

by Leslie Anne Mcilroy


at this rate everything is Tuesday

I masturbate   sometimes to sleep
sometimes to escape my body
always to become a stain
and say here

it’s been a month since
I last said the name of someone alive
twice in a row

I bear a striking resemblance
to all my father’s regrets

I do not want a diagnosis
I’m certain that a name
is something incurable


Photo of Julian Randall

Photo of Julian Randall

Julian Randall is a Living Queer Black poet from Chicago. He is a 2016 Callaloo fellow, Lois Morrell Poetry Prize winner and the 2015 National College Slam (CUPSI) Best Poet. He is also a cofounder of the Afrolatinx poetry collective Piel Cafe. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in The Offing, Winter Tangerine Review, Vinyl, Puerto del Sol and African Voices. He is a candidate for his MFA in Poetry at Ole Miss.